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Performance, Utopia, and the "Utopian Performative" Author(s): Jill Dolan Source: Theatre Journal, Vol. 53, No. 3 (Oct., 2001), pp. 455-479 Published by: The Johns Hopkins University Press Stable URL: http://www.jstor.org/stable/25068953 . Accessed: 22/09/2011 10:00 Your use of the JSTOR archive indicates your acceptance of the Terms & Conditions of Use, available at . http://www.jstor.org/page/info/about/policies/terms.jsp JSTOR is a not-for-profit service that helps scholars, researchers, and students discover, use, and build upon a wide range of content in a trusted digital archive. We use information technology and tools to increase productivity and facilitate new forms of scholarship. For more information about JSTOR, please contact [email protected]. The Johns Hopkins University Press is collaborating with JSTOR to digitize, preserve and extend access to Theatre Journal. http://www.jstor.org and Utopia, Performative" Performance, "Utopian the Jill Dolan This essay is a rumination of sorts, the which performance might provide us with ance, in itself, be a Utopian gesture? Why people labor on stage, when contemporary in of an inquiry into the ways beginning can How of utopia. experiences perform do people come together to watch other culture solicits their attention with myriad for social gathering? Why do people and opportunities other forms of representation to seek the liveness, the present-tenseness that performance and theatre continue an expression of a Utopian impulse? offer? Is the desire to be there, in the moment, Certainly, people are drawn to theatre and performance by fashion and by taste, by the need to collect the cultural capital that theatre going provides. Live theatre remains a site at which powerful and standards, Yet I also believe less other, to establish to model tangible, fashions, that people more and exchange and trends, are drawn emotional, of cultural to set taste, styles. to attend spiritual, notions or live theatre and performance communitarian reasons. for Desire, to the stark, ascetic "spaces" that house perform perhaps, compels us there, whether ance art, or to the aging opulence of Broadway houses, or to the serviceable aesthetics are compelled to gather with others, to see people of regional theatres.1 Audiences moments that might for of transformation let them live, perhaps, perform hoping, to its micro the theatre, from its macro outside reconsider and change the world is to reach arrangements. Perhaps part of the desire to attend theatre and performance for something better, for new ideas about how to be and how to be with each other. I can articulate a common future, one that's more believe that theatre and performance just and equitable, one in which we can all participate more equally, with more chances to live fully and contribute to the making of culture. I'd like to argue that such at the University is the Zachary T. Scott Family in Drama Chair Jill Dolan of Texas heads the MA/PhD She is the author of Learning program. of Geographies as Critic Presence and Desire andT\\e Feminist 1993), (Michigan, Spectator She is a past-president at Austin, where she (Wesleyan, 2001), (Michigan, 1991). of ATHE. 1 in theaters, whereas art As Holly Hughes "Theater tends to happen says ironically, performance ... as somewhere a stage, some a box in spaces. A theater will be defined tends to happen with lights, room, head shots, and people who know how to run these things. A theater is a place office, a dressing a space has been that has been designed for theater, whereas it's a for some other purpose: designed an a church basement, art and it's always better suited for room, station, gas gallery, somebody's living than for performing" and giving oil changes Clit Notes: A Sapphic ("Introduction," suppers pancake Sampler [New York: Grove Press, 1996], 15). TheatreJournal53 (2001) 455^79 ? 2001 by The JohnsHopkins University Press 456 JillDolan / to be part of the intense political then usefully emotional, desire of performance offers us, if not expressly what of expressions utopia might feel like. present I offer here a series of experiences, that moved examples in come from utopia my situation performance. My thoughts and person as a writer. I want to train my to use students me to begin to define as an academic theatre as performance a tool for the world better, to use performance to incite people to profound making responses that shake their consciousness of themselves in the world. Perhaps that, already, is the idea that theatre can do any of those things. Yet that's the Utopian, depth of I long when reaction for which I go to the theatre?I don't think we should expect anything less. Theatre remains, for me, a space of desire, of longing, of loss, in which I'm moved, I'm startled by a confrontation by a gesture, a word, a glance, in which own with mortality I and to theatre and to hear stories others'). go (my performance that order, for a moment, my incoherent that the of engage longings, complexity and cultural and a that the of social personal relationships, critique assumptions system I find sorely lacking. Iwant a lot from theatre and performance. In my new book Geographies of Learning: Theory and Practice, Activism and Perform ance, I argue for the ways inwhich theatre studies in the academy might be engaged as a site of progressive social and cultural practice. I urge students to be advocates for the to creating performances committed of insight and compas arts, to be theatre-makers because they want to learn sion, and to become spectators who go to see performance about their culture that extends beyond themselves and the present something circumstances of our common humanity.2 My argument is that theatre and perform ance create citizens and engage democracy as a participatory forum in which ideas and possibilities for social equity and justice are shared. Iwrite quite a lot about how we might reimagine theatre studies programs to meet these goals. Yet it occurs tome that I didn't write much about theatre or performance itself in that book. This essay, then, takes the same beliefs, the same faith in theatre's transformative impact on how we and citizenship as performance glimpses in culture, ourselves imagine is also about and looks and subjectivity; transformational more cultural at closely it imagines how practices This performance. a commitment offer might us project to theatre consistent of utopia. Dragan Klaic's book, The Plot of the Future: Utopia and Dystopia inModern Drama, looks at modern dramatic literature that revives "interest in the future as a dramatic theme and as a chosen time setting of dramatic action."3 But my contention is that performance?not just one drama?is the of few a where places live as experience, well as an expression, through content, of utopia might be possible. My concern here ismore performative and more technical. I'm interested in the material conditions of theatre production and reception to that evoke the sense that it's even possible a that boundless that where the social scourges imagine utopia, "no-place" currently plague gender 2 See us?from poverty, discrimination, Jill Dolan, Geographies cancer, famine, hatred of Learning: Press, 2001). University Wesleyan 3 Klaic, The Plot of the Future: Dragan Press, 1991), 2. Michigan AIDS, of lesbians, Theory Utopia gay men, and Practice, and Dystopia health inadequate bisexuals, Activism inModern care, and and transgendered and Performance Drama racial (Ann Arbor: (Middleton, University CT: of "UTOPIANPERFORMATIVE"/ 457 the grossly unequal distribution and resources globally, religious of wealth people, in intolerance, xenophobia expressed anti-immigrant legislation, lack of access for the a course and of host of be ameliorated, disabled, pay inequity, cured, others?might us never to I in haunt faith have the that we can redressed, solved, again. possibility imagine such a place, even though I know that we can only imagine it, that we'll never achieve it in our lifetimes. But that knowledge doesn't prevent me from desiring a theatre in which an image of a better future can be articulated and even embodied, however fleetingly. Utopia means, literally, "no-place" century by Thomas More. As political more construed widely as well ... is not and was of course first coined in the sixteenth scientist Lyman Sargent says, "Utopian thought restricted to fiction and includes visionary . . . and to envision a writings united by their willingness a as or either form of social its negative society dramatically ideal-type a vision of a radically different inversion."4 Scholars point out that while (and with utopia, coercive better) future drives experiments presumptively something can be enforced at the expense of liberty, general lingers about the term. Utopias consensus achieved by limiting choice. Fascism and utopia can skirt dangerously close apocalyptic as constitutional different to each other. But idealism draws me here; as Roland Schaer says, "Utopia, one might say, is the measure to feign what it wants of how far a society can retreat from itself when it would like to become."51 find this notion very rich, the idea that in order to pretend, to enact an ideal future, a culture has to move farther and farther away from the real in which into a kind of performative, in this case, doesn't necessarily the utterance, make it so but inspires perhaps other more local "doings" that sketch out the potential in those feignings. As Sargent notes, in his extensive taxonomy of the genre of Utopian frustration literature, "Utopias are generally oppositional, reflecting, at the minimum, with things as they are and the desire for a better life."6 These definitions all point to the future, to imaginative territories that map themselves over the real. The utopia for I yearn takes place now, in the interstices of present interactions, which in glancing to be together as human beings. Quoting moments of possibly better ways Ruth Levitas, Rustom Bharucha says, "What is needed are not better 'maps of the future,' but more of of the present,' maps 'adequate the desire for a more humane activating which can can a utopie promise or possibility in what Richard Schechner describes performance, motion the whole event? of dispersing" performance he says: length; How, then, inspire the most effective means world."7 in the space be advanced as the "gathering-performing It's worth quoting Schechner of at 4 and Lyman Tower The Utopia Reader eds., "Introduction," (New York: Gregory Claeys Sargent, New York University Press, 1999), 1. 5 Roland and Lyman Tower Sargent, Schaer, Gregory eds., "Introduction," Claeys, Utopia: The Search the in the Western World Ideal Press, 2000), 7. (New York: Oxford for Society University 6 8. Schaer, Claeys, "Introduction," Sargent, 7 on Rustom Reflections Theater 26.1/ the Present," Bharucha, "Contextualizing Utopias: Remapping 2 (1995):37. 458 JillDolan / When times that are that theatre at special takes place "go to the theatre" people they acknowledging a show are in and rituals observances, special places. Surrounding special practices, lead into the performance and away to the theatre district, from it. Not but only getting the building itself involves the gates, ceremony: ticket-taking, passing through ... frames a to from which watch: all this and defines the rituals, performing finding place or some the show and going also involve away ceremony: performance. Ending applause to conclude re formal way the performance and wipe the reality of the show, away in its the reality of everyday life.8 establishing place entering Seen through the lens of performance, the possibility for utopia doesn't only happen the lights go down and the "play" begins. For instance, utopia can present itself when in rehearsals?director Anne Bogart, in fact, "I often says, see rehearsal my as situation is a possibility for the values I believe in, the politics I believe in, to Utopian. Rehearsal exist in a set universe which iswithin the room."9 She suggests that rehearsals are the moment in theatre, when a group of people repeat and revise of utopie expression incremental moments, trying to get them right, to get them to "work." Anyone who considers herself a theatre person knows when when the "works"?it's something of magic theatre when appears, the the pace, the expression, the gesture, the emotion, light, the sound, the relationship between actor and actor, and actors and spectators, all meld into something alchemical, something nearly perfect in how it communicates in that instance. We all rehearse for the moments that work, and critics look out for them, when they're still idealistic enough to believe in them. Through an itinerary of performance, we can enlarge the potential territory inwhich something might "work" to the whole glimpse frame gathering-performing-dispersing of utopia. and look more for a widely in his book, Some critics debate this premise. for example, Philip Auslander, a as Liveness: Performance in Mediatized Culture, explicitly sentimental the critiques notion that performance remains the domain of the live, that intimacy and immediacy are possible in other media, there in ways unavailable such as film or television. Auslander says, ... I live performance's cultural valence became with what quickly impatient to in their unreflective that fail much further traditional, get assumptions to explicate of "liveness" than invoking the value clich?s and mystifications like attempts "the magic of live theatre," that supposedly exists between the "energy" and performers in a live event, and the "community" that live performance is often said to create spectators and among performers spectators.10 Investigating I consider Ausl?nder performance, I must because to be believes one admit these he very terms set up a false binary persuasively that I believe as a one-time actor, and proves in all the things as a director, live and mediatized between exist. doesn't that Auslander writer, spectator, disparages, and critic, mostly performance them all. I've felt the magic of theatre; I've been moved theorist, I've experienced by that that "work" generate; and I've witnessed the the palpable energy performances formed when groups of people gather to see potential of the temporary communities can always other people labor in present, continuous time, time in which something 8 rev. ed. (New Richard Schechner, Theory, Performance 9 Theater 26.1/2 Anne (1995): Bogart, "Utopia Forum," 10 Liveness: Performance in aMediatized Philip Auslander, York: Routledge, 1988), 169. 182. Culture (New York: Routledge, 1999), 2. UTOPIAN PERFORMATIVE"/ But Auslander go wrong.11 somehow argues sense whatever generates the "against idea one of community that may 459 live performance itself experience_mediatized performance makes just as effective a focal point for the gathering of a social group as can promote live performance."12 community. But Herb Blau Surely any gathering once said that watching iswatching the actor dying onstage; I think live performance confrontation with mortality.13 sharing that liveness promotes a necessary and moving own and prompts us toward our The actor's willing enables vulnerability perhaps and compassion moved emotionally can sentiments Such greater understanding. is a necessary to precursor political and emotion, spur movement.14 Performer being and Smith says, "The Utopian theatre would playwright Anna Deavere long for flesh, It would in a technical world, be hopelessly old-fashioned blood, and breathing. interested in presence, hopelessly interested in modes of communication hopelessly room same same in at to human be the the time."15 requiring beings By clinging to the fleshy primal emotion and presence, Smith's work spurs that however us, live, our by reminding perhaps, differently we flesh-full cause is that in performance, we're dying together. seductions of old-fashioned action political common, As scholars who study it demonstrate, most historical writings about utopia are or the redistribution of wealth and futuristic tracts that describe social reorganizations cultural roles. Especially the nineteenth like the Oneidas century socialist Utopians, and the Shakers, like Charles Fourier, Samuel Butler, and Edward Bellamy, concerned themselves with imagining and trying to implement societies founded on their own, uniquely devised Utopian principles. My goal here is not to propose a "real" utopia, if I'm not even sure I'd like to live in a utopia, a place without that's not an oxymoron. or that I'd like to see theatre that describes such a perfect place. conflict or dissension, Klaic notes, "Utopia is, by its very nature, without state of stasis, harmony, conflict?a and balance. These are not ingredients for exciting theatre, which is always based on or at and least tension." Klaic contradiction, conflict, opposition, says, "Theatre succeeds rather it presents when than depicting its Utopian the consequences as arguments a 11 Sarah Schulman artist Jeff Weiss, Playwright quotes performance to persist the AIDS and ethical obligation in crisis, "We have a moral is the power of theater. We're all in this together, 'reel') time. That in being human as the identical instants together, engaged sharing unison" Theater, AIDS, (Stagestruck: to open blueprint, of their implementation."16 and theMarketing of Gay America who said opposition, Some to her scholars in reference to the living of real (as opposed to at the same time. We're totally our time [Durham: in advances, parallel, Duke University Press, 1998], 61). 12 Auslander, Liveness, 55. 13 comment is actually, Blau's "When we speak of what in acting, we called Presence Stanislavski must the dimensionality also speak of its Absence, of time through the actor, the fact that he who is can die there in front of your eyes; is in fact so. Of all the arts, the theater performing doing performing stinks most Herbert of mortality." Point Blau, Take Up the Bodies: Theater at the Vanishing (Urbana: of Illinois Press, me of the exact reminded 1982), 83. I'd like to thank Amy University Steiger, who thesis quotation by citing it in her MA Texas at Austin, Spring 2001. 14 See Ed Cohen, "Who are 'We'? Gay in Inside/Out: Lesbian 84-85. 15 Anna Deavere 16 Klaic, Dragan Theories, Smith, "Utopia Gay in the Department of Theatre as Political 'Identity' Fuss Theories, ed. Diana (New of Lights," "Systems Theater Sustained," Theater 26.1/2 26.1/2 (1995): and Dance at the University (A Theoretical (E)motion York: Routledge, (1995): 61. 50-51. Rumination)," 1991), especially of 460 JillDolan / wonder if there move us even would be theatre in a utopia.17 We'll never know. But theatre can toward imaginations, incremental the possibility of something better, can train our understanding our our dreams and fuel desires in ways that might lead to inspire cultural change. I'm not a utopia, in constructing interested of us who although many engage with to work devise such politically non-profit organizations systems, through our on boards of directors and memberships through the idealism of social service groups that want to do things differently. My concern here is with how utopia can be or imagined experienced affectively, through feelings, in small, incremental moments can provide. As Richard that performance Dyer says, in his chapter on entertainment and utopia, "Entertainment does not... present models of Utopian worlds.... Rather . . .what the utopianism is contained in the feelings it embodies. It presents utopia would feel like rather than how itwould be organized. It thus works at the level of I mean an affective code that is characteristic of, and largely sensibility, by which a mode of cultural production."18 These to, in specific given feelings and sensibilities, performance, give rise to what I'm calling the "utopian performative."19 Let me give you a specific example of an event inwhich for utopia were possibilities in and around a theatre, a women's solo art series I performed through performance curated with a local theatre company, the Rude Mechs, in collaboration with the of in Fall a I 2000.20 That course called "Performance Texas, fall, University taught Art." My goal was to introduce students to the wider Studies/Performance field of to studies their the conven stricter limits of performance expand knowledge beyond tional theatre. We addressed various theoretical issues, such as those Schechner poses in his description of performance structures as framed by gathering-performing amodel that can or performance in dispersing, apply equally to dramatic performance life. We read also Marvin Carlson's of which describes everyday survey performance, 17 See, in a special issue of Theater, the Yale journal that she edits, on See her "Exiled from Nowhere," Theater 26.1/2 utopia. out to me that itwould to think about be interesting (1995): utopia to Aristotelian in relation a kind of static, conservative resolution catharsis, which promotes ultimately not I'm death drive, given that utopia is a kind of stasis. See (to which here), and to Freud's aspiring also Lynda Hart and Peggy Than Thou: Being and Deb Margolin," Theatre Journal Phelan, "Queerer 47.2 in which their own desire and wrestle, (1995), work, they demonstrate through Margolin's the death "I want as drive: as and precarious performance, through against something flimsy all the yelling about mimesis and realism and the tyranny of the Because, performance. despite couple, Iwant to match the tentativeness of the lives and loves I, and I on the other something hope we, make side of the death drive" (280). 18 Richard (New York: Routledge, Dyer, 1992), 18. See also Fredric Only Entertainment Jameson, inMass Culture," "Reification and Utopia Social Text 1 (1979), in which he suggests, "[T]he hypothesis is that the works cannot be of mass culture without at one and the same time being ideological or as well: some unless offer shred implicitly Utopian explicitly they cannot manipulate they genuine as a of content about to be so manipulated" fantasy bribe to the public (146). 19 See Jos? Estaban Mu?oz, Brown: in Ricardo and Affect Bracho's The Sweetest "Feeling Ethnicity marks for example, Erika Munk, who, the absence of theatre from writings 101-11. Ann Pellegrini has pointed (and Other STDs)," of feeling provide "It is thus critical to unpack Hangover structures Theatre Journal 52.1 (2000): 67-79, for a discussion of the ways new for constructing Mu?oz utopie possibilities subjectivities. the material as emotion and historical import of affect as well understand failed and actualized of citizenship" performances 20 I'd like to thank Rude Mechs members Sarah company and Shawn Sides for their help in managing Madge Darlington, (69). Kirk Lynn, Lana Richardson, and producing this series. in which suggests, to better Lesley, UTOPIAN PERFORMATIVE"/ 461 art as a resistant cultural form that allows opposition and marginal performance identities to be expressed and explored. Once we'd established these concepts, we looked at work by contemporary artists such as Guillermo Gomez Pe?a, performance Robbie McCauley, Adrian Piper, Marga Gom?z, Luis Alfaro, Lisa Kron, Danny Hoch, some of the ways performance can be employed and a host of others, that exemplifies and experienced as politically activist as well as aesthetically new and invigorating, as, perhaps, Utopian.21 across the university, Iwas able to invite departments to three nationally known performers campus. Their extended visits complemented in class. I also worked with a local the reading and video viewing we accomplished are an Austin-based to program performances. theatre collective The Rude Mechs With funding from various company who've worked together for the last five years producing original work and new The Rudes had recently taken the lease scripts occasionally by other playwrights. on a converted warehouse on Austin's East Side, which they use as their performance space. The East Side, across the interstate that bisects Austin, remains relatively untouched that has exploded the growth in Austin's north, south, and west. by the gentrification This is the Latino side of town, where taquer?as and small grocery stores line the the streets, butting against national fast food chains and liquor stores. This is where in is most Rude Mech's the Off the heart of Austin's theatre, Center, located?squarely marginalized community. The experience of driving to the 100-odd-seat Off Center is different from going to, for instance, the 3,000-seat Bass Concert Hall in the Performing Arts Center on the UT campus or driving around Austin's small downtown, trying to find parking to see a touring performer or a play at the Paramount Theatre. cultural capital circulates in Austin, and its structure within the city's movement mirrors its of derive course, geography, nationally. Many performances, their cultural capital by virtue of their location, or from how closely they mirror the of high or middlebrow culture, and/or by how enthusiastically proprieties they're as "must see" events. The the sanctioned critics and theatrical by marketplace The way Producers, for example, the theatrical adaptation of Mel Brooks's film, draws people success and (despite or perhaps because of its $100 top ticket) through its Broadway critical approbation for its satiric irreverence toward "political correctness." When and if it tours to Austin, it will play the Bass Concert Hall, which stands as the city's venue. season A to the premier producing subscription Performing Arts Center in which it's housed is a status ticket inAustin.22 The PAC's series develops its own brand more of cultural capital, mixing with touring Broadway productions highbrow music and dance and, to its credit, a multinational, eclectic array of world performance genres. 21 The texts for the class others, Scheduler's among Performance Theory; Carlson's Perform from Jo Bonney, ed., Extreme (New York: Routledge 1996); and selections Texts From the 20th Century (New York: Theatre Communi Exposure: An Anthology of Solo Performance cations Group, ed., Out of Character: Rants, Raves, and Monologues 2000); Mark Russell, from Today's Top (New York: Bantam, 1997); C. Carr, On Edge: Performance Art at the End of the 20th Performance Artists CT: Wesleyan and David Press, 1993); and Holly Hughes (Middleton, Rom?n, ed., Century University O Solo Homo: The New Queer Performance 1998). (New York: Grove, 22 at the Madison See Stacy Wolf, and Selling Audiences Civic Center," "Civilizing Spectators: Theatre Survey 39.2 (1998): 7-23, for an analysis of how cultural capital works within city arts centers. ance: A Critical Introduction included, 462 JillDolan / The Off Center Salvage Vanguard elite, centered sites of culture Salvage and the Rude Mechs) garde," like the Vortex or theatres in Austin from their difference from these more in Austin. These are theatre companies (in the case of or spaces to which people come to see edgy, "avant and other community-based accrue their cultural capital "non-mainstream" work, or performances that break through the enforced or constrictive or presumptive of hegemonic whiteness decorum heterosexuality notions about gender or race or ability or ethnicity. The Off Center's reputation made it a likely place to launch a women's series. The crowd it draws solo performance to find in the work ameasure of fashion, style, or trendiness, as would be predisposed toward community, well as (and most importantly, for me) a gesture of commitment progressive politics, and non-mainstream, resistant art. the divide of the city moves you into a place of subaltern culture, outside Crossing constructs as its cultural center. Cultural of what even a mid-sized city like Austin accrues from here setting that's seeing performance within a Latino community capital even in to Austin. the invisible Despite marginalized culture-mongers, typically white. The geography of the theatre, the audiences it attracts tend to be predominantly are determined to do local outreach Rude Mechs, however, as the space's producers, into the Latino/a the space is not a large, prestigious community. And because aren't Rudes considered part of Austin's and because the cultural site, production a as in East Austin can't be read of their establishment elite, harbinger gentrification. the contrary, the Rude's aesthetic and their politics mean that their choice of local allegiances and theatrical coalition building should inevitably diversify their audience base. Pulling into the grass and gravel lot where spectators and performers park their cars outside the theatre, finding the outdoor ticket kiosk, beside a table where you can buy candy and a beer before you head into the theatre, or hang outside and talk and that huge Texas sky smoke and catch the breeze in Austin's warm night air while is a different experience of theatre darkens into pinks then purples then blues?this to what transpires inside. There's a landscape to Texas that's going, and it matters rather than hidden, at the Off Center, by the lack of downtown revealed, lights or white its distance culture. its from elite, traffic, by uniqueness, by On at the Off I collaborated with the Rude Mechs series on which The performance Center was called "Throws Like a Girl: A Femme, A Butch, A Jew," and it showcased in September, Peggy Shaw in October, and Deb solo performances by Holly Hughes and to the campus were in Their visits to Austin November 1). (Fig. Margolin came to UT to speak to my class, to structured identically: each month the performer a answer and session to which the community and the free public question do that was also university were invited, to do a free three-hour performance workshop open to the community, and to present three evenings of their work at the Off Center, one of which was followed by a talkback, another by a reception. I'm describing the location and structure of the series at some length, because these are the material that I believe fostered a sense of Utopian possibility conditions our last fall.23 And as I noted when I began, utopia, I collective experience throughout 23 See David for a "sociology here argument Savran's "Choices of theatre" are indebted Made that would to his work. in which he argues Theater 32.1 (2001): 89-95, and Unmade," at materialist Parts of my modes of production. look closely LIKE S A GIRE most thru t? the notion's fcflwle Drtists performing jjerfofionce their newest ond hottest works PREACHING T0TH? PERVERTE? 21,2?,23? 8 pm September GENTtEHAN HENOPAUSAL 8eto?*fl2,13,14<M|?i 2211-AHIDALGO ST. TICKE 476 CALL W. I ?HOW [wtf ether km*- - .-. ?am} Mevember 2,3.4^ 8 pm 1. Throws Like A Girl: A Femme, A Butch, A Jew performance Figure at the Off Center with the Rude Mechs in Austin, Texas. Photo series curated Courtesy by Jill Dolan of Jill Dolan. 464 / JillDolan includes energy, think, is in the details. Dyer's taxonomy of utopia in entertainment means which he and abundance, intensity, transparency sincerity), community, all (by the affective reach of the UT performance of which organized series.24 The structural a framework on which a ritual-like atmosphere, regularity of these events provided energy and funnel their curiosity. people could rely, could hang their anticipatory art and were Some of my students had no prior experience seeing performance as its unbridled fierceness. Others had somewhat suspicious of what they understood art but had never crossed 135 in Austin, let alone gone to a perhaps seen performance a seem that didn't like conventional theatre. series allowed The space performance students to acclimate to a genre with which many of them had been unfamiliar and to in style, content, and address. among the performers quickly learn to see differences and solo perform The series was also thematically linked by its focus on women and each of the performers shared a common history. All three began their careers at the WOW Caf? in New York, a community theatre on the performance Lower East Side that became a hotbed of irreverent lesbian and feminist performance, much of which borrowed popular forms like television sitcoms and variety shows and infused them with new and hilarious meanings. All three performers had worked now at at tour various times WOW and similar spaces across the together performance ance, their solo careers. country and internationally. All three performers have solidified This sense of affinity among them also threaded through the three-month event. I curated the series intentionally to showcase solo performance by feminist women a a me to of certain generation, share with students strategy that allowed pedagogical the "Performance my own urgent sense of feminist performance history. Although Art" course was broad-based and diverse, I felt keenly my own Studies/Performance to honor women whose work had been foundational to my own desire publicly me in This criticism. desire to feminist motivated performance writing bring Hughes, toAustin forweeklong residencies. I performed, as amiddle-aged Shaw, and Margolin teacher, my own identification with these women, my own pride in the history they I took part as a spectator and a critic. I also demonstrated formed and in which my artists takes hold, we honor the insistence that as a new generation of performance women whose work inmany ways founded the genre.25 Still, I knew that my choices were a window into my own desires and my own web of historical identifications. in their mid-forties to honor my own generation of women I also wanted and early fifties and older, who came of age at a time when we couldn't take for granted feminist or lesbian representations in the public sphere. Feminist and lesbian performance 24 Dyer, 25 There Only Entertainment, a vast is, by now, 20-21. on and expanding critical and theoretical archive of feminist work own as Feminist Critic for several (Ann my only performance. key examples, Spectator on Gender, Arbor: and Desire: of Michigan Press, 1991) and Presence Essays Sexuality, University and Theatre of Michigan Press, Case, Feminism (Ann Arbor: University 1993); Sue-Ellen Performance Feminisms collection, 1988), and her edited (Baltimore: Johns (New York: Routledge, Performing feminist See, Press, (New York: Routledge, 1990); Elin Diamond, 1997); University Unmaking Mimesis a Spectacle Unmarked Phelan, ed., Making (Ann (New York: Routledge, 1993); Lynda Hart, and Peggy of Michigan Press, ed., Acting Out Phelan, (Ann 1989); Lynda Hart University the Stage: A Arbor: of Michigan Press, ed., On and Beyond 1994); and Carol Martin, University Sourcebook of Feminist Theatre and Performance 1996). (New York: Routledge, Hopkins Peggy Arbor: "UTOPIANPERFORMATIVE"/ 465 carried so much weight when it first began to appear, bravely and insistently, in subcultural around the country. Women spaces in New York and in communities created it because it to survive; it remains even now marked they needed by this Sarah Schulman urgency, especially for lesbians, gay men, and queers. As playwright writes so poignantly, are a confused at stake is principally We of [T]he gay audience my group generation. are the ones who we In many have the most and dramatic queers. ways, experienced traumatic of homosexuality. We had such profound shift in public depiction oppression as trauma. We are the last of the in childhood that they qualify experiences dirty-dark are the last group secret generation. We that came of age in a time in which homosexuality was never mentioned, had no public have that representation_we experienced changes we walk to too huge to digest too confusing into and often when So, fully comprehend. a theater on and see two women been humiliated and vilified stage after we've kissing by our own families for doing the same thrilled. But in the context of contempo thing, we're ... that kiss does not have we once dreamed the meaning itwould. It does not rary culture are mean the that we selection are of full human lives beings that make up whose lives the American can now be truthfully represented among experience.26 sense of arrival and disappointment, This generational tinged with the memory and your politics material for desires very real, very oppression aligning your or me women to to Austin. invite of this group feminist, lesbian, queer, prompted of as residencies at UT and at the Off Center affected all of us in poignant ways. was Hughes eloquent in her meeting with my class and in her public interview. She an issue that already to the converted," the notion of "preaching deconstructed concerned my students, who feared that political work reaches a too narrow audience to think progressively. How, they wondered, of people already persuaded could more so and its be that for social people persuaded, performance potential change wouldn't Their far from the notice of those who perhaps need to see to shake and Tim Miller's work, Hughes proceeded is always unstable, that people that "conversion" notions, suggesting converted to anything; there's always ambiguity, ambivalence, and ance, she insisted, is a renewal of faith, and progressive politics be ghettoized David Rom?n itmost? Quoting up some of these are never, finally, doubt.27 Perform are always faith based.28 At the Off Center, Hughes her most recent piece, Preaching to the performed Perverted, which addresses her ten-year court battle with the NEA over the rescinding of her individual artist grant and the decency clause the agency subsequently 26 149-50. Schulman, Stagestruck, 27 and David See Tim Miller Rom?n, 88. See also Vicki Patraka's to the Converted," Theatre Journal 47.2 (1995): 169 in Carol Martin, ed., On and Beyond the McCauley, to the converted, "I think that criticism is a says about preaching the converted know? And things resonate, ripple out. This is not to we need for audience to grapple with finding ways development; interview "Preaching with Robbie in which McCauley 205-38, First of all, how much do cop-out. say that you do not work constantly to expand But we don't need audiences. Stage, work clear 281was for our to put that problem in the way of doing the work, issue is just a block" The whole (234). making our audiences. to Hughes the term struck, listening talk, about how vital it is that progressives recuperate from the ways it's being pressed into service by the Bush administration. The notion of to me, detached it seems in its affect on political from religion, is undertheorized commitments. "faith-based" faith, and beautiful 'Judge Judy did NOT prepare me for* PREACHING THE TO PERVERTED written & performed by BEGINSOctober 30! 2-for iune & the 'r'HFWB.L "NEA Four." hu? h or 1 tickets with this card (see reverse) or www.tickets.com Tkts: 703-218*6500 Grps: 202*393-3939 OF HORNiNFSS; Figure 2. Holly Hughes's of the Woolly Courtesy Preaching Mammoth to the Perverted Theatre flyer. Company. "UTOPIANPERFORMATIVE"/ 467 is invested with to its funding awards (Fig. 2).29 Hughes's performance appended a on wit from that makes cut of the and meaning presence sharp edge intelligence, a but full With series and of props?cardboard rough iconically political pain. personal boxes, evoking the soap box on which political artists are always accused of standing; a series of small American celebrates and and discards, flags that Hughes waves confetti and streamers and the detritus through the course of the performance; litter the floor as her performance winds down?these of political campaigns, which and her body, dressed simply in black Capri pants and a wrinkled white shirt tell a so many of its citizens. The difficult story of how American democracy marginalizes as one NEA Four (or, as she says of the her experience piece exorcises, for Hughes, and the three homosexuals"), detailing the censorship by the ironically, "Karen Finley to lose her radical Right that prompted her first grant, then win it back on its first and to the Supreme Court by the Clinton to be second court appeals, and then dragged to administration argue the decency pledge. By interweaving her own family history as a reveals the lies uttered in the with her future pariah at the Supreme Court, Hughes name of democracy and the ways it keeps its dark side flapping on the back of the flag mourns where can't you always see it. The piece has a pedagogical function, teaching spectators how the Supreme Court to hear her the proceedings of the "bad" girl attending from the perspective works, own case argued. In Hughes's hands, the "Supr?mes"?as she calls them?become patriarchs (regardless of their actual gender) who punish bad children. She represents into their rubber ducks, stuck with toothpicks them, though, as identical, miniature stature for the sake of her their cardboard bench, symbolically diminishing corrugated an a in I'm institution of a not citizen "I'm because here / Participating argument. I bad been here "I'm because have democratic / very very says. country," Hughes she bad / And I am so lucky to be sitting here at all."30 The court's architecture, seem in their and the and intimidation fear, justices predisposed suggests, inspires judgments, rather than truly open to argument. External voices drive Hughes's movement through the piece, from commentators names are familiar from national radio and television spin shows, to friends, to or to describe it back to her as a good agents, to editors calling to exploit her notoriety no while "There's bad chortle, grows more and more Hughes they publicity," thing. across as own it explodes the media, put to use according image helpless to control her whose 29 For on the NEA see, for example, Dolan, debacle, of Learning-, commentary Geographies to the Supreme Court?': the One About the Lesbian Who Goes "'Have you Heard Theatre Journal 52.4 (2000); Peggy and the Case Against Phelan, "Serrano, Censorship," Holly Hughes The TDR 34.1 (1990): 4-15; and Wendy and You: the NEA Steiner, 'Money Talks,'" Mapplethorpe, of Chicago Scandal of Pleasure Press, 1995). (Chicago: University 30 to the Perverted, references 2000. Subsequent manuscript, unpublished Hughes, Preaching Holly to Hughes in the text. I'm very grateful for giving me a copy of this will be included parenthetically our current text. If Preaching of utopia, culture as intensely the opposite presenting clearly describes on numerous which I've seen her perform "The short Mystery clip, Spot," Hughes's dystopic, as one of her more moments. In this piece, she be addressed occasions, Utopian performance might car to travel alone to "the Amazing billboards leaves the confines of her parents' Mystery Spot, where Richard selected Meyer, we could witness that defied the laws of nature" phenomena promised the allure of this tantalizing 11). As she follows place, her road takes her, in New York, where artist begins. her career as a performance Clit Notes, (in "Introduction," to the WOW Caf? eventually, 468 JillDolan / to ideological necessity and rarely matching what any of her performances truly meant or intended. There's a disjuncture between and the person who (as she Hughes tells us in Preaching) then-head of the NEA John called "the self-avowed Frohnmayer lesbian whose work is very heavily of that genre." This separation grows larger as the and her alienation from the of that litter the stage piece proceeds, symbols democracy becomes more to watch. painful to the Perverted describes a world very much out of joint, so blatantly so in its and cold white and to the needs of all discriminatory practices, unresponsive of its citizens. Hughes's not is of heterosexual dominant male, critique only power but also of hegemonic whiteness. She describes the court's architecture as imposingly remote and marbled white, its racial biases written into its facade. The piece informs, the audience to a kind of righteous anger not just editorializes, entertains, and moves on Hughes's behalf but on behalf of all of those whom the flag waves away from from artists to the African American in mother the queer democracy, piece who tells her daughter the flag isn't hers and not to salute it in school. Preaching Richard Meyer, in his analysis of Hughes's says, "Hughes extends the performance, narrative of her defunding into that of the culture wars more generally and from there into a free-wheeling rubs up against public story of the ways inwhich private memory and her reading of the controversy, and controversy."31 The force of Hughes's memory in which it offers points of personal or social identification the ways for spectators, reminds us that performance, provides what Meyer believes is a call to action. Hughes while a "space apart," is an active space, one tied to a public the sphere in which mutual agency of performer and spectator might have meaning. writes, Meyer Each time I see Preaching to the Perverted, in a a conference whether classroom, university or a I visit this "space In the history of hotel, theatre, community-based apart." reenacting her own defies the of art and that censorship, Holly Hughes silencing sexuality history to enforce. And she invites with else in her audience?to do sought everyone me?along the same.32 The experience of watching Hughes's vulnerable, emotionally insightful perform ance galvanized on opening night, spectators at the Off Center. After the performance most of the audience remained for a talkback. Staying in the theatre after a perform ance and is a moment spectator of what have a Schechner chance calls to relax, "cool to when down," shift from the together, "ecstatic" the performer moment of back into the grooves of more prosaic life. Staying together in that space performance can be a time of shared still under the aura of her subjectivity. The performer, now the of her theatrical charisma, afterglow performance infusing her performance in everyday life, can look back, can speak directly to spectators, and can be addressed in kind. Each of the performers was unstintingly in these moments. generous They worked to answer questions honestly hard to connect with people, and openly. In these exchanges, the performers, of an too, were fed, buoyed by the responses audience educated about their work and committed to providing it a responsive cultural context. The talkbacks and the public question and answer sessions at UT 31 "Have Meyer, 32 Ibid., 552. You Heard," 552. "UTOPIANPERFORMATIVE"/ 469 the performer shared insights not only into her inter subjective moments, when and her larger body the performance into the of also but process meanings multiplicity of talking, the spectators' of work might generate in cultural history. In these moments labor, their gesture of what David Rom?n has called "critical generosity," opened a for the performers.33 onto utopie possibilities window were we invited, there was no separation Perhaps because of the tendencies of the artists their art and their their theory and their practice, between in their remarks between and public lives. They embodied politics, or even, inmost cases, between their private an artistic practice when a resolution of the vexations that dog us all: how tomaintain an academic vocabulary; how to stay attached to your most you're learning or using in a form that sometimes culture when you're working beliefs about felt deeply the create work of your own when to how their militates expression; against closes off of culture, and the lack of an alternative counterculture, commodification conventional work. avenues of access for all but the most formally and politically and their their and Deb Shaw, experiences by sharing Margolin, Peggy Hughes, to at these awkward dualities, beliefs, inspired me and my students to keep working believe that they can be resolved, however fleetingly For instance, Shaw captivated us all during her visit to our class by spinning an tale of how she became a performer. With all the easy charisma that makes hour-long Shaw told us the story of her life, one full of hope and in performance, her magnetic and happy accidents that lead her to be briefly married, very young, to coincidences the drag to stumble upon a have child who has now born her a grandchild, to tour in in Greenwich Sheridan Square Village, troupe Hot Peaches performance Lois and then with them to Europe, to hook up with Spiderwoman Weaver, Troupe and then to form the Split Britches Company with Lois and Deb Margolin. Hers is a faith, freedom, and possibility. story of making something out of nothing, of unbridled a Shaw's Utopian vision is of world where people commingle, where there's plenty for which she calls "theatre of everyone. And that vision starts in her performances, The danger transformations presence charisma although from the depths culled necessity," of theatre, it makes she says, possible. of what her soul has to say to others. is in the power Against Auslander of presence, and other in the power critics, who of the discredit as a function of a metaphysics they no longer value, Shaw inhabits her want to mystify I don't the notion of presence, Like Auslander, seductively. evoke and use it I believe in its influence.341 think that certain performers 33 See David Indiana and AIDS Rom?n, Acts of Intervention: (Bloomington: Gay Culture, Performance, in that sets out to intervene is a practice he says, "Critical generosity Press, 1998), in which University we theatre and perform and discuss AIDS to understand the limited perspectives currently employ therefore forces us not only ance forms of analysis. Critical conventional generosity by looking beyond are made the ideological evaluations but also to acknowledge to rethink traditional criteria by which . . .Critical can be that criticism understands that promote canonical generosity systems prejudice. can also be Criticism for qualitative than simply a procedure of critique or means much more analysis. a a with and collaborative (xxvi-xxvii). engagement larger social mission" in a dualist is as complicit notion of 'presence' "A reified writes, subjectivist an in the account the as is the Cartesian of 'mind.' Neither 'body' adequate provides are a discursive the signs read as 'presence' 'mind' in the body, or of the process by which cooperative 34 As Phillip metaphysics the mind, construct" 15). I'd once endeavor Zarrilli ed. Zarrilli to Part I," in Acting (Re)Considered, [New York: ("Introduction thesis recalled my attention Steiger, whose MA again like to thank Amy 1995], Routledge, to this quotation. 470 JillDolan / better than others, but it's through technique and precision that presence gains power, can comes to point us toward those other, better worlds. If utopia, in performance, an the action makes it then that appear, only happen through performative, through In Peggy Shaw's presence, is quite important. technique through her performers' a as In she reveals her human that charisma, being. generosity, I see utopia. generosity It comes from the transparency, or sincerity, that Dyer marks as Utopian in enter tainment. Shaw's details Gentleman, Menopausal performance, her as a experiences 53-year-old as a 35-year-old man is full of such passing (Fig. 3). The piece grandmother as and she describes the contradictions, ambivalences, tiger of hormones ambiguities, in sweat her skin that her becomes her "own veins, pacing through breaking through summer."35 private text non-linear the She a more that marks coherence arc. Like Hughes's works more conventional in a gesture accumulation, full of conflict included, Margolin's and piece, Shaw's builds and accretion by typical narrative through three performances, movement each choreographs and physical emotional, incisive, sharp, through association? than rather progressing In fact, each of the of narrative closure and and resolution. refuse theatre. the kind Instead, anecdotal tions, and political critique through vignettes, momentum. that force their images gather through they share evidence, emo insights, and exquisite inMenopausal Gentleman call attention to Shaw's handsome, aging, in her glorious suit, cut in a body, as she stands center, posing hormonally-crazed 1930s retro style, double-breasted, graced by a sharply folded handker pin-striped, the piece, chief angled out of her breast pocket. The suited pose recurs throughout marked her her her the crotch, cuffs, neck, by adjustments?of simulating always a into the that adorn that of male clothes his settling body masculinity. Knowing the artifice are the bindings that hold Shaw's breasts, and the flesh of a underneath Those moments woman stage who's born a child, in a multitude poignant, of ways, full of desire, and performed loved other women, makes longing, the image of Shaw's gender gentleman on and off and compelling and loss. of the piece is Only a low wooden bench shares the stage with Shaw; the movement with that isolates her her her hands, accompanied face, by accomplished body, lighting a soundtrack of Nina Simone, Toni Childs, Screamin' Jay Hawkins, and Frank Sinatra. is haunted by the sounds of dominant power, invading her private world IfHughes the noise of her body, Shaw's ears ring with with their public pronouncements, into Her heart beats noisily, like an her sounds private making public nightmares. in the dark, with out its Nina while she dances hold. Simone of engine echoing plays to wrists and her ankles, shining pointed light on her hands mini-flashlights strapped light makes her skin translucent, shining on the lines of her skin and her in the dark like an apparition with no body, only limbs, Shaw isolates In her choreographed she evokes the absence of the whole. physicality, the labor of gender, even if she insists she's "so queer [she] doesn't have it."What she performs is the sweat required not only to flush hormonal a gentleman in through an aging female body, but the hard work of "being and feet. The veins. Dancing her parts but demonstrates to talk about changes menopause." 35 Peggy grateful Shaw, Menopausal to Shaw for giving me Gentleman, unpaginated, a copy of this text. unpublished manuscript, 1997. I'm very UTOPIAN PERFORMATIVE" / Figure 3. Peggy Shaw inMenopausal performing Gentleman. Courtesy of Peggy 471 Shaw. Menopausal Gentleman is full of grief, replete with images of leaving, loss, opportu and not turning back, where nities missed and irretrievable, lovers saying goodbye once they stood and waved until distance robbed them of visibility. The piece attempts to incorporate such losses, to feel them as present, even while the ghosts recede. "I fall to pieces in the night," Shaw says. "I'm just thousands of parts of other people mashed into one body. I am not an original person. I take all these pieces, snatch them off the the bed by the light, and I floor where they land before they get swept under on "I the body: wish I could hold time still, manufacture myself." Time passes, written I'm going to feel just lift it up to that tube of bright fluorescent light to examine it... so far in I'll there's time." Shaw's all the emotions I've postponed my life. just go slow, reassurances are rueful, lingering in the space between us as questions, not truths. inMenopausal Gentleman when Shaw talk-sings to Sinatra's My There's a moment left wall, then slowly moves out into She Way. begins leaning against the downstage the audience, up the narrow aisle of the small space, shaking people's hands, speaking they directly to them, patting them on the back. This is an intersubjective moment; Shaw leaves the space marked off for perform often become Utopian performatives. ance to approach the audience, to mingle for greeting, allowing freely, empathizing, 472 JillDolan / moments of identification, curiosity, desire, even love to extend through the audience. Her presence moved through the house like a current; she electrified the audience, bound her to us, brought us close to the complexities of her longings and our own. Is a this not glimpse of utopia, the generosity of the performer in sharing her hands, her heart, her desire, with an audience of friends and strangers? Shaw moves through the as though she knows everyone, leaving the comfort of theatrical distance to who have been watching her, some, no doubt, up, among house-lights people mingle, with desire and longing. In this moment, she makes herself attainable as the object of such desire, and shares her own longings as a desiring subject, wanting the connec that shaking someone's hand, looking into tion, the temporary break with anonymity audience their allows. eyes, a similar, but different, scene in Preaching to the Perverted when Hughes a "dreaded moment in which of audience participation," she invites two different spectators to read hate mail she received during the height of the culture wars. Yet Hughes's into the audience, hailing them and Shaw's moments of venturing into the space of performance, aren't coercive or ridiculing, as is so much of what in more mainstream creates of her theatre. Hughes passes for audience participation There's announces in the co-participants spectator-assistants of her production meanings. performance's tone, but invariably read the hate mail with the proper self-righteous are is the with that is, among, "per affinity clearly Hughes (they and join her in undermining its threat. Shaw's verted"). They perform bigotry likewise levels the performance field. By pressing the flesh, she seductive mingling humanizes herself, brings herself down to size, and refuses the awe her own charisma The spectators their personal inspires.36 Partly what appeals tome here is Shaw's romanticism, an affective address that, like or too long from our discussions of performance love, has been perhaps banished in defense is a this time writing of disco, notes, "romanticism research.37 Dyer, particularly art of quality paradoxical to come to terms with. Its and passion intensity and every embody or create an experience that negates the dreariness of the mundane our us a means at it to and of emotional It of what live the day. gives height glimpse our experiential routine down the of banality organized capacities?not dragged by life."38 This intense, in communion 36 This is also partly what allows Shaw project. Hilary in which by the way heteropatriarchy in an anti-racist size. Shaw participates scale. of Respectability," 37 See Virginia 361-93. See Hilary Harris, Theatre Journal 52.2 R. Dom?nguez, Dom?nguez ed. Corey moments of magic and K. Creekmur love that she might the image of the "White Man" women are in white supremacist complicit at twice his natural the "White Man" back to himself that white they reflect by, among other things, 'White Womanhood': "Failing (2000): 183-209. project "For a Politics that argues is writing discourse. Dom?nguez for love and affection necessity 38 "In Defense Richard Dyer, Culture, those to undercut writes Harris prosaic creates performance. otherwise a more is what romanticism utopie and cutting the white Interrogating man down to the Performance of Love and Rescue," Cultural Anthropology 15.3 (2000): a in scholarly) in cultural (even place on the to scholars in anthropology, but her comments affection specifically in our discourse have resonate here. usefully in Out in Culture: Gay, Lesbian, and Queer Essays on Popular of Disco," and Alexander Press, 1995), 413. (Durham: Duke University Doty "UTOPIANPERFORMATIVE"/ 473 a notion of "communitas" in social Victor Turner has developed Anthropologist in drama that very much describes what I'm calling Utopian performativity perform ance. He says, "Spontaneous is communitas and immediate 'a direct, total confronta interaction. It tion of human identities,' a deep rather than intense style of personal a in it there is has something feeling of endless "magical" about it. Subjectively us who has not known this moment when power.'" Turner asks, "Is there any of a flash of lucid mutual understanding congeners?obtain compatible people?friends, on the existential level, when they feel that all problems, not just their problems, could be resolved, whether emotional or cognitive, if only the group which is felt (in the first as 'essentially us' could sustain which of communitas, rippled offer residencies, springboards performers' person) moments illumination?"39 These its intersubjective and the all three performances through to utopia. of art and desire. In her talk in class and in her Deb Margolin spoke eloquently that "desire is our dramatur that passion matters, insisted public interview, Margolin a woman, in is a radical front of people that for She said force." standing up gical moment as to At that of it the desire does, speaking, speak. political act, expressing, she says, you're one point at which the universe expresses itself, at which you "grab a is she believes, fistful of experience and redistribute it through theatre." Performance, a no with her feels alone in which she the last communal longer experience, place no longer has to feel that she's the only one who's noticed something? observations, something vital. As Lynda Hart notes in her strange, something moving, something to of her edited collection introduction Margolin's work, "[T]his is what you can seek in these most innocent to find Deb and expect Margolin's work, these small moments, are and woof the of what nonetheless that and ordinary exchanges, very warp our our deaths makes and constitutes lives, performance, O meaningful."40 Margolin's is all about noticing, witnessing together Wholly Night and Other Jewish Solecisms, that might signal, if you moments that otherwise might pass into oblivion, moments comes the Messiah forMargolin, look at them properly, the advent of a utopia when, (Fig. 4). infuse daily O Wholly Night, evoking as it does the Jewish Messiah whose mysteries content three in most of the the life, presents perhaps performances overtly Utopian she's the series. Deb is an elegant storyteller, never losing sight that the people our presence by a addressing are those in the theatre with her, always acknowledging look, by a knowing "take." As Hart says, "[S]he holds us. The nod, by a conspiratorial in rooms that she is in."41 She begins the piece by telling the story of present happens She the torn and beautiful silk dress that hangs upstage throughout the performance. acquired it from a Mrs. Friedman, a friend of her on parents', the occasion of Mr. that at some point, the Friedman's death, and holds onto it longingly, knowing a to in When she's commissioned totemic function will fulfill performance. garment she calls Mrs. Friedman to ask her again about write a piece for the Jewish Museum, 39 Victor to Theatre: The Human Turner, From Ritual 1982), 47-48. Journal Publications, 40 in Of All the Nerve: "Introduction," Lynda Hart, 1999), 5. 41 Ibid., 8. Seriousness Deb Margolin of Play Solo, (New York: ed. Hart Performing (London: Arts Cassell, iSHillf^^ Figure 4. Deb Margolin Photo in O Wholly Dona credit: and Other Night Ann McAdams. Jewish Solecisms. "UTOPIANPERFORMATIVE"/ 475 the dress's origins. But the older woman denies the garment and its history. Exasper ated, she says, "Look, Debbie, Inever gave you a dress. And if you need a story, MAKE one that instantly rubs fiction IT UP!"42 This is the benediction for her performance, in into stories that their doubt against truth, that throws fantasy, their phantasmatic true. fullness, ring utterly Margolin's performance utopia he or she will bring Halloween party," Margolin forward from behind amask know who or when, it's best is about waiting for the Messiah, the trying to summon a a is "It's The Messiah's like mystery. identity big along. says. "Life is a costume party inwhich anyone may come and reveal themselves as Moshiach. And since you never to be as graceful as you can to everyone and to try to dress for utopia to reveal itself requires grace, provides an ethic (143). Waiting reasonably" in performance. Her emotional for living that Margolin models generosity, Shaw's intellectual and political generosity, and the seductive physical generosity, Hughes's these rehearsals for utopia, in a gesture, in a all these acts entail?aren't vulnerability an an in to that converts strangers into community? of address audience way living, in Austin, it rained, much harder than first performance The night of Margolin's that didn't stop for hours. The Off Center's roof is tin, usual, a torrential downpour a gathering like cacophony, of drummers who and the pounding water sounded couldn't follow the beat. And because the space is essentially jerry rigged, the roof It formed over the playing that the show couldn't leaks; puddles space. appeared at and But the the noise after because of 8:30, begin damp. waiting fruitlessly for a let she wandered up, during which through the audience talking to people and taking we down stage center, acknowl about what should do, Margolin moved opinions to it her performance, and began and the the weather challenge might present edged O Wholly Night. She strained to project over the noise from the roof, and we strained to that's all about hear, and in the process, we were brought even closer, in a performance as we watched and the intimacy night, immediacy. Through Margolin perform around and cupped our ears to hear, the rain came to sound like the growing puddles, a its of the moment we shared and its applause, rhythm recognition of the presentness never The be will show uniqueness. probably played quite that way again. Yet those of us watching that night were stirred by the intimacy, by Margolin's vulnerability, by her to environment and silence refusal let the the her, courage urgency of what she had by to say. as a utopie moment: describes holding her young daughter "We are Margolin in each other, my daughter and I... her sleep is like Moshiach tome: quiet, Messianic effortless, a true relief at the end of a long day ... as I hold her, I realize with certainty that a part of what defines Messiah forme is relief" (144). Perhaps utopia, too, is about in of clarity: Margolin relief, presented performatively gestic moments holding her the from her wrists and Shaw ankles, calling out to a unbinding flashlights daughter; to dance to the the rainbow she lover not to leave; Hughes donned removing silly wig "I all that her Will hand could ever Survive," finally dropping gay anthem, hope wave moments aren't but moments the these of of defeat, flag; perhaps genuinely 42 Deb Subsequent and Other Jewish O Wholly Night Margolin, will be included references parenthetically in Of All Solecisms, in the text. the Nerve, ed. Hart, 140. 476 JillDolan / moments that herald the arrival of a new and better world. Or relief, messianic of the seeds perhaps utopia are only present at times of failure and apocalypse. Michael Loewy, writing on Jewish messianism and utopia, says, "[I]n many talmudic texts the idea appears that theMessiah will only come in an era of corruption and total .. . a total culpability. Only the revolutionary catastrophe, with a colossal uprooting, destruction of the existing order, opens the way to messianic If this is redemption."43 in fact, of loss, despair, grieving, absence, might, so, then the performative moments the new. herald "sees Messiah where he refuses to see" her (150), in the quotidian, Margolin inwhich people are unnoticed details of people's lives. She describes prosaic moments called upon to "act asMessianic stand-ins," moments when Margolin says she's "lifted out of [her]self into the soiled robes of Moshiach" (155). It's this affective quality of can draw for us?ordinary utopia that performance people being lifted from their lives to form connections that in utterly simple ways make the world better. This is Utopian inwhich the deed makes the doer the Messiah. And because, as Dyer performativity, notes, "everyday banality, work, domesticity, ordinary sexism, and racism are rooted in the structures of class and gender in this society, the flight from that banality can be seen as a flight from capitalism and patriarchy as lived experiences."44 Such flights from banality into an intense, sincere, generous romanticism pointed in all three performances. For instance, Margolin and toward Utopian performatives in which I felt Shaw's performances included moments of utter silence, moments utopia rising with the hairs on the back of my neck. InMenopausal Gentleman, two after Shaw has finished a particularly thirds of the way through the performance, the and she returns to the edge of the bench to vigorous physical scene, lights dim, retrieve a bottle of water that's been there, waiting, the whole time. The blue light is so that her face is in shadow, but the bottle, as she raises it to her lips, is translucent, brilliant, bubbles moving through a tube that seems crystalline under the focused theatre lights. background. the silence, She and stands, She drinks she's drinks; she's the rest, performer's she until silent sated. But performer's while music it's the moment replenishment that plays in the softly of the performer's to attention draws labor, her sweat, and the intensity of the hour we've spent with her. The water, out her the almost down throat to cool her, is a bottle of rhythmically, draining meet and its That her needs. she could her needs, take her reminder of body palpable her time, take her moment, we while watched, an seemed in a moment and utter peace. I felt such yearning, a yearning to suspend to be with, this moment Shaw drink. together breathlessly, watching ruminative of utter faith and utter trust in which she simply sits in the chair there's a moment a and she looks out at us with a pleasant, story, relating InMargolin's performance, stage right. She's just finished expectant, act that probably didn't last a minute, out of time, while 100 people sat expression on her face. It's a pause, a break, a moment inserted of rest. Her silence was a moment of exquisite things, another moment one in rather unnerved than the absence of which be by speech, I felt the vulnerability, between 43 Michael Loewy, "Jewish Messianism Critique 20 (1980): 107. 44 Dyer, "In Defense of Disco," 413. and Libertarian Utopia in Central Europe," New German UTOPIAN PERFORMATIVE"/ audience wanting to take care, to extend our to her presence as had she hers 477 to us. Hart says, "One of the many ways that I experience the beauty of Margolin's work is in the with rather than waiting for. A waiting without the feeling she creates of waiting a A atten of forward without keen movement, about, anxiety projection. looking of communal, almost loving rest, when tion."45 Perhaps in these moments the flesh we come at to attention and the soul and feel relieved, pauses, stops together, utopia. I'm not suggesting that every spectator will find feelings of utopia in performances or for that matter any feminist or queer performance Shaw, or Margolin, by Hughes, artist. Their performances inspire me, move me toward such feelings of possibility, hope, and political agency. These three white women begin their address to the public sphere from outside its enforced norms, and through the critical stories they tell, help to dislodge its assumptions. As Hilary Harris writes, "The imaging and the perform ing of an anti-racist white womanhood" requires rejecting the politics of respectability. . . . "Shaw and Hughes and distinctly disreputable 'feminini perform consistently ties.'"46 Their queerness distances them from the politics of respectability, instantiating the "threat that a white womanhood might actually choose distance over proximity as its desired relation to the hegemonic public body and that itmight do so in the service of an antiracist whiteness the "Whitespeak" that passively specifically."47 Rejecting and Shaw name evades accepting and the agency for racism, Hughes ideology is this is it of dominant discourses. how works. This, whiteness; say, exclusivity they to white talks too much,"48 is already marginal the "brainy Jew who Margolin, a mime kind her of that womanhood, performances although respectability betrays it too and such from within. much, using By talking obsessively elegant language, removes herself from white privilege and power. She performs a kind of Margolin Her insist Jewish excess, that marks her as affectively outside normative whiteness. ence on charting her own desire, and on calling attention to her own body as a locus of sexual, emotional, and spiritual feeling, also rejects a respectability that would disallow her to speak in the first place. All three performers school. structurally Storytelling, to draw could be accused of talking too much, of telling stories out of in fact, lends all three performances their power and works the themselves. reigning assumptions and to them offer models for agency, for J.Hillis Miller writes, "The human capacity to tell stories collectively build a significant and orderly world around . . .Narratives of closer audience transformation and change. is one way men and women are a given a relatively culture safe can be or innocuous criticized."49 place Hughes, in which Shaw, the and in this dual function of storytelling, all participate creating order and Their stories are Utopian performatives because, assumptions. criticizing underlying as Miller suggests, "A story is a way of doing things with words. Itmakes something of selfhood or ways of happen in the real world: for example, it can propose modes Margolin 45 8. Hart, "Introduction," 46 'White Womanhood,'" Harris, 184, 204. "Failing 47 Ibid., 202. 48 7. See Hart, "Introduction," Of All the Nerve, 49 in Critical Terms for Literary Study, "Narrative," J.Hillis Miller, of Chicago Press, 1990), 69. McLaughlin (Chicago: University ed. Frank Lentricchia and Thomas 478 JillDolan / are that behaving then in imitated To real world."50 the see women alone, onstage, one I can't (orwon't) take for granted. telling stories is still, forme, a political moment, out utter "a she stories of tells need, says craving to tell a story, that's balanced Hughes a to listen." She says, by hunger I can as I At least one pair of eyes are on me I've got an audience. God, I can tell the story of my life (lives). And attention. (stories) paying they're a even I'm out of there's me, lost, because they're following though plainly light shining I make I'm in an their eyes. this Not watched. my way along light, knowing being All think stumble Orwellian audience helping is: thank through an sort of way in the sense of but watched over, guarded. being watched Having the light of a hundred is a form of protection. It's like having tiny private me to the next.51 find my way from one side of the story suns are so I once asked Hughes why she needs to perform, given that her performances so on read it's that well the She insisted that the social page. space of they writerly, see to that that her motivates her the desire others forward, performance gives hope, to Her be guided by that light shining from their eyes. stories, she writes, listening, also offer the audience maps, ways of answering their questions, showing them where says, "everyone they've been and where they might go. "As far as I can tell," Hughes can always use a story."52 and would to see a story I agree with Hughes, only add that everyone needs us as to live. This need Sarah Schulman says, theatre performance; performed, propels is raw, in front of you, [r]eal people theatre has a better reputation their something, showing it deserves. The people who desire. make I think that's why so vulnerable. it are no one Their is so palpable. lives are filled with Almost gets struggle. we think of it as a place for progressive ideas, as a progressive why at and somewhat the culture large, something hopeful pure.53 Their desire the theatre. on wanting than Schulman description rich That's describes suits that the community-based the context and theatre work contours of that she most Shaw's, Hughes's, on force admires, and a Margolin's she bemoans the lack of grants, the lack work over the last twenty or so years. While and of professional the lack of facilities technical expertise, the grueling lack training, of money, and the insulting lack of attention from powerful presses, Schulman boasts Iwould that what "precommodified" add, feminist? gay and lesbian theatre?and work had was a "passionate audience."54 The passion of the audience explains why in its world-makings the desire to see it, to participate live performance continues; must in in instill such desire my generation persists. People people in the next. Iwant to perpetuate experiences of utopia in the flesh of performance thatmight performatively hint at how a different world could feel. I know I'm risking sentiment here; I know that community and theatre, like utopia, can be coercive, that nothing is ever, truly, is outside of ideology, and that nothing 50 Imean the power of a narrative also says, "By 'performative' Ibid., 69. Miller as to give, or to appear to give, knowledge" to its power (78). opposed happen, 51 2-3. "Introduction," Hughes, 52 Ibid., 9. 53 91. Schulman, Stagestruck, 54 Ibid., 69. to make something UTOPIAN PERFORMATIVE"/ 479 in the politically in I believe of romanticism possibilities progressive ... and the contacts what calls "the of emotional intensity Dyer fleeting performance, a exquisite pain of [their] passing."551 believe that during the Throws Like Girl series perfect. we But achieved a matter of moments 'grace.'"56 of "Communitas," which communitas, spontaneous he says, "tends Turner to be says "is inclusive?some sometimes might call it generous."57 This, for me, is the beginning (and perhaps the substance) of the utopie in in the audience's generosity, in the lucid power the performer's grace, performative: however fleeting. These are the moments when we of intersubjective understanding, can believe in utopia. These are the moments 55 "In Defense 413. of Disco," Dyer, 56 Turner, From Ritual, 58. 57 Ibid., 51. 581would like to thank Stacy Wolf, David Rom?n, on earlier drafts of this article. comments helpful theatre Susan and Bennett, performance and Ann make Pellegrini possible.58 for their very